“You never change things by fighting the existing reality. To change something, build a new model that makes the existing one obsolete.” – Buckminster Fuller
Hi, I’m Jay, my creative journey so far has been one full of accomplishments that I am proud of. From having my artwork displayed in a gallery, to winning awards, my artwork has always spoken about what is on my mind and takes people on a journey of their own.
Even though I am an artist who creates surreal and abstract worlds that bringing my imagination to life in new and creative ways, there was a time I had no creativity and was even fearful of my own shadow.
My artistic pursuits started at a young age when dreaming of creating worlds and realities of my own.
When I discovered digital art I was given the tools to turn my childhood dreams into a reality, but all that ended when I turned to drugs at the age of 16, which inevitably spiralled me down the wrong path.
In my darkest hour I was lost and was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 18. Terribly frightened of the world, it wasn’t until my uncle gave me a job at his glass studio that I found a sliver of hope.
I became an assistant glass blower learning a 2000 year old craft and finally found myself developing my passion for art again.
Feeling the need to fill my excitement, I decided to return to my fascination of creating digital art, learning the ropes on Photoshop, 3D’s Max and Bryce to express my creativity and find peace in my world.
For many years I was lost and asked the universe for help and eventually I discovered the book the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. He discovered accepting the present moment works best, being in the “NOW”.
One night experiencing intense suffering, he said “I can’t live with myself.” he stood back and thought who is the I and who is the self.
What he discovered is the I the one who listens is who you really are and the self is the EGO the stories you hold on to.
I had a similar experience, I was in the deepest dark depression with no grip on reality or the world around me and remembered something a family friend said to me. If you’re experiencing hell you always have a choice, you can choose to leave at any time.
That’s when it hit me, I always have a choice, I can choose how I feel and no longer have to be a victim to the mental anguish I was going though.
From that point on I’ve chosen to work on myself.